bad day

today may be the worst day..
i never wanted to go through....
is like someone had just aimed an arrow at me..
not just physical at me..
is the inner part of me.. HEART..

which already filled with scar and is still bleeding no matter how hard..
me or my friends who care bout me try to stop it..
but it juz wont stop..

maybe it will stop..
but the time is just not now..
i DUNNO when..

i have always been call a fool..
stupid human.. blur case.. sleep human.. useless human..
no even care bout it..
who cares..???? really.. who does..??

not even a single soul do care..

if is so..

why the hell am i here..?
for wat im here..?
if im here..
im juz a troublemaker for others..

so for what i even exist in this world..?

i should have just disappear..

before things even happen..

before i even noe..
you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, and YOU..

what the hell im doing here n waste ur time..?

i should have die earlier..

oh no..

i deserve the punishment..

i must die..

ill die as early as i can..

dont worry..

as long as im not here..

everyone will be happy..

i will be gone..

be happy.. everyone..

good bye..!

do you know..?

do you know..?
though i act like nothing..
but inside..
im Dying..

y could u not understand me..?
even a minute will do..
but u juz cant..

n tats wat i hate bout u..
i know is hard to change...
but when u're changing u cant even noe tat u r..!

wake up..
dun stay in ur nightmare..
dun trap urself in it anymore..
dun let it drag u to hell..
you'll suffer..
wake up before that..

decision

i dunno whether is correct or wrong..
im juz confused..

i dont know what to do.
izit right or wrong..?
i dunno..
can you tell me..?

maybe u're lost too..
but i oni can confirm one thing bout it..

im lonely..
i juz felt tis way..
but..
im ok..
no matter what happen..

7 thing

MILEY CYRUS

"7 Things"

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
Now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you

[Chorus]
The 7 things I hate about you (oh you)
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
And when you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

[Chorus]
The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
And when we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined everything's alright
I want to be
With the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
You do (oh)


[ www.azlyrics.com ]

Things have their beginning..

and i bet they cant run away from ending too..
The word good bye..
can end something in a second just like that.. *slap*
Good Bye..

P.A

P.A System..
Stand for Public Address..

haha.. i join the P.A today..
for the inter-class drama form 2..

wah...........
i dunno is so exciting..!! XD..
I luv it..!!
though is not easy as i think or u..

alah.. i dunno how 2 say la..
but is nice la.. XD..
(manglish everywhere.. XD..)

but.. after the event end..
me n suet min in class..
were dead bodies..
= =''....
both of us are wore out.. XD..
n both felt sleepy in class..
i slept in bm class.. but suet min..?
nah.. she couldnt miss her class..
see how hardworking is she..? lol..

though doing P.A is tired..
but is very fun and exciting..
hope to learn more..
XD..

NEWWSS!!!
Final exam is brought forward..!!!
noooooooooo...!!!!!!
T.T.. T.T.. T.T..
NO.............................
I DONT WANT EXAMS...
my dears..
study hard.. play fine.. XD..
lol.. wat does it suppposed to mean..? XD..
Good Luck..!! My Darlings..!!

nthg

So..? yes.. i damn happy now that u n her nthg now..
u not happy..??
then tats ur problem..!!
i dun giv a damn to it..!!

u tis kind of ppl..
worst than anythg..!!
even worst than a shit..!!
hope u hav a good life after tis..!!

u me her..??
EMPTY..!

FUCK OFF..
DUN LET ME SEE UR FACE AGAIN..
U DA WORST HUMAN I'VE EVER MET BEFORE..

U.. THE DISASTER..
U.. THE TROUBLE-MAKER..
U.. THE 'HUMAN' WHO LIKE TO BLAME OTHERS..

UR STUPIDNESS WHICH COZ ALL TIS..
UR SELFISHNESS..
U LOST HER N ME..

UR SELFISHNESS..
WHICH DESTROY ALL THE MEMORY..

UR SELFISH WHICH COZ ALL TIS..

u.. will oni make ppl hate u..
if continue like tis..
u.. nvr repel from ur wrong..
u.. always blame other ppl..

u..?
the nonsense, stupid, idiot, freak, selfish, damn, fucking worst human i ever met..!

now.. get out of my life..!
which u hav the worst u of all..!!

get out of the way..!!!
u freak..!!

hate you

i juz hate you..
but u noe wat does it really mean rite..?

u muz realize tat thgs cant continue be like tis..
if u wanted to be like tis..
then i rather i nvr hav u...

u juz can continue having her ur mind..
n dump me aside..
coz im not worth it rite..?
i nvr do..

u told before..
tat u r not worth it..
but still..? i believe u..

but.. i hear a lot.. n thought a lot..
i think i shud do the right thg rather then let u be more rotten and even rotten..

tis i wat i hav done.. choose..
i is painful..
but u muz noe..

the painful one is only you..
me and her share the same feel..
but u nvr realize it..

let go is hard thg to do..
but it doesnt mean u cant..
unless u urself who dont want to do it..

stop giving excuses n reason that you've tried.. but u cant..
wat is this..?? is tis wat u can tell me if u are the one who doesnt wan to do it..??
stop.. enough..
if u are really committed n really want to do it..
u would have success it earlier..
not until it coz wat had happen today..

dont blame others..
i noe we are wrong..
but do think u r not guilty..? not the wrong one..?

u make ur choice now..
we hac clearly voice out what we wanted to say..
is tat u the one we're waiting for ur answer..
ur mind.. ur decision..

we both really care bout u..
tats why we dare to say tis hurtful thg..
but dont forget..
wat u suffered.. we are suffering it now too.. even long before this..

i rather u change.. then having u by my side..
i rather u hav her in ur mind but not be together with me..
i rather im da one who suffer all this..
but thgs are not easy as u thought..

im always here..
but thgs will not remain the same now..
good luck.. good bye..

あいしてる。。さよなら。。

wow

hey.. i found sumthg in hermes's blog..
i like it..
so...........................
i hacked it.. XD..

hermes please dun angry.. XD..

Quote of the day:
“I’ll make you so in love with me…. that every time our lips touch you’ll die a little death.”
-George from ParaKiss.

ps:hermes.. ill hack more.. please expect more.. XD..

choices

Choose..
you can only choose one.. have one.. .own one..
and no more...

make your choice now..
no more hesistating.. make the last choice..

ThErE iS nO wRoNg Or CoRrEcT dECiSioNs.. JuZ dA cOnSeQUeNcEs TaT u NeEd 2 aCCepT..

i hate u..

i hate you..

how many time u want to hear i say i hate you..??
y cant u just understand me..? im very sad bout it...!
i noe tat i may be selfish now..
but have you ever think bout me..?
i really dunno..

i juz dunno what to do..
what u say.. i always believe.. giv u chance.. everythg..
but..? u always let me down..
what can i say..? or do anymore..?
i really dunno..

i dunno...!!!!!! n wan to make it clear..!!!!
juz da truth..!!! im not how u think i am..
i too hav a place whr u dun understand me...
i too hav a sumthg tat i really wan u to noe.. notice..

i too hav the same way u felt the same for her..
but y is it so different..? why..?
i dont know..
i really dont know..

Horoscope

hey.. i kinda obsess wit horoscope..
XD.. haha.. hav a look at it.. i get from friendster buletin.. XD..
oh ya.. is in chinese de oh.. XD..


雙魚座
弱者，你的名字是贏家。碰到小魚兒，你裝可憐、裝苦情，多少都有效果，她的同情心是基本配備，不忍心看你痛苦。另一方面，你就是強勢、蠻橫不講理，讓她再度演出受害者，她也是順勢接受了。於是我們總是看見雙魚女離不開花心男，或是總是演出花系列，無論如何，只要有劇情，那麼愛情就會繼續。

巨蟹座
她有強烈的母愛，也就是說她當然可以包容，因此許多你犯的錯誤就這麼一而再再而三的反覆發生，成了習慣。她不會計較小事，有的時候甚至寵壞了你，而大條的麻煩她也是一肩扛起，但是都是嚴重內傷。如果你覺悟了要道歉，想想你到底欠她多不多，是該撫平哪道傷口，好好反省自己，再給她真心的安慰。

lol.. oni a few.. XD..
next time ill try 2 find english wan.. XD..

射手座
什麼錯？她早忘了。可以不要再溝通了嗎？可以不要在一直苦情下去了嗎？可以出去玩了嗎？你計畫的整個告解過程當中，她滿腦子只希望聽見「重新開始」，就像電動玩具再新起一局，電腦當機就重新開機，最好你重新變一個人，提共一些新玩法。忙著認錯又怎麼樣？如果你還是那個舊東西，戀情也不會進步阿。

天蟹座
認錯只是起頭，隨之而來的是你要提出你的改造計畫，如何讓自己更好更完美。這下慘了，那個比登天還難的標準從此纏繞你到天長地久，很快地你會後悔，因為承認錯誤也不會讓她更開心一些，她只是更為你們憂慮。所以呀，適度的耍耍賤招是健康的，聲東擊西，亂盧一通，不要去談那個錯了，上床做愛吧。

Fcuk..

fcuk.. fcuking life..
im very ok.. juz bored in tuition..

then sumthg came in n get out juz liddat..
freaking day.. wat a time..
im so piss off..

dont worry.. i nvr blame u..
anyway is my wrong.. it has nthg to do wit u.. really..
is juz my stupid, freaking, damn problem..

i nvr blame u.. im juz piss off..
dun worry.. im all rite..
but dun mess wit me..

im ok.. really.. no matter wat happen..
anyway it doesnt bother u rite..? i think so..

fcuk.. freaking life..
hope i nvr bother bout it..
juz lay in the coffin.. having my fake sweet dream..

~Sweet~

It's really a surprise..!!
A surprise ill never forget..! but please inform ma..
if not ill have a sudden shock! k..? lolz..
I luv it..!! Arigato..!! ^^..

.......

wats wrong with me..?
i juz dropped by.. to visit.. visit her blog..
so i read da past posts..
wats wrong wit me..?

is just some really old posts.. and..

tears just roll down.. middle of nowhere..
wats wrong..? i dont know..

as i read.. i felt.. i recall..
The Past.. I Never Ever Wanted It..
To Happen.. To go through.. n therefore..
Become a Past..

That brought..

Pain.. Sadness.. Disappointment.. Jealousy..
The feel of Hatred increasing day by day..
without realizing it.. Then.. It Broke All of Us..

Make Each of Us Break Down..
Even a Small matter Could Kill.. Why..?
Bcoz of Me.. I should have Not Exist .. NEVER..

Broken..

I Gave You My Heart..

And what did you Do to It..? This..

Can it ever be the same again..? No.. Never..

It can only be like tis.. No matter how many times.. or days.. or ways..
u try to fix it.. The Scar.. Will Stay.. Will Maintain..
Endless Pain.. Sad.. Depression.. Disappointment..

Will You feel Glad if you Never Met Me..?
Maybe..

LonG LasT Post

come on.. i juz wanna put some pic from bali.. n i need 2 wait tat longggggggggg... My Gosh..!!! *faint* arghh..! never mind.. dun giv a damn.. Actually i wanted 2 post tis so longgg ago.. but i cant.. you noe y rite..? coz my blog skin is not done yet..! but.. well.. as u can see now.. Is Done..! wahhhhhhhhh.. i cant stop admiring it.. XD.. Though is juz still beginner.. XD..

Anyway.. On da 1st day.. Me n mum did not do much.. we juz hang around in the hotel.. watching tv.. XD.. but we do went 2 sum interesting places.. like the Balinese old hse.. They still maintain it.. u shud admire them.. they still using wood 2 produce fire n cook. XD..

N we went 2 the celuk village.. is not exactly a village.. is juz a shop.. selling all da silver silver stuff.. n so called the most 'cheap' n 'quality' silver.. we 've got nthg from there.. *sigh* XD..

Then we went all da way up to the mountain 2 see da volcano.. *yeah!*
before tat, we stop by to visit a very freshing.. em.. garden..? farm..? aiya.. don't know la..
a garden/farm tat produce coffen beans.. n powder aso.. by.. using da traditional way.. aiyo.. see da photo la.. XD..
THEN.. when we are about to see da volcano.. = =.. here comes Mr.Fog..
From tat point, Uncle Pari said, "woh, maybe we cant see da volcano 2day.. coz fog is covering.."
.... I so DamN Piss Off.. Wat im awaiting is juz da Volcano.. T.T..

Oh ya.. Uncle Pari is our guide.. Hehe.. he brought my mum n me visit almoz da whole Kuta city.. XD..

La.. story still long la.. juz skip la.. XD..
Then.. on da.. eh.. 3rd or 4th day ar..? we met 1 very special couple..
They are Uncle n Aunty Irene..!! wow.. They both are Lovely.. ^^.. i MISS them.. T.T..
we them at da hotel's swimming pool.. We swam 2gether.. Hehe.. well.. Uncle dunno how 2 swim.. XD.. But he is stilll adoreable.. XD..

Ya.. 1 THG.. u MUZ NOE.. me n mum is having breakfast.. u noe whr..?
our hotel.. All Seasons Hotel.. for Exactly the 4 days we r there..
= =.. well.. da food is ok.. but is juz.. (dont mention.. PLeaseeee...)

Oh ya.. N in Bali.. U r not goin 2 met any Balinese.. but.. u r meeting.. a LOTS of Mat Salleh thr..!! There r Thousand of them.. N everywhr u go.. all da waiter or sales girl.. will definitely.. Speak English..!! Not like sum Malaysians.. Who cant even Pronounce a single word.. *sigh*
gambateh.. Malaysia Boleh.. Rite..?

Anah.. is too long la.. sum more pic le..? lolz..
juz ending wit.. on da aeroplane.. in BUSSINESS CLASS site.. XD..
We met a korean air-stewardess.. wah.. she was so pretty..! n 1 interesting is.. she's a KOrean.. wah.. 1st for me.. she chatted wit me.. n my mum took a pic of her n me.. T.T.. i miss her too.. XD.. Ok la.. enuf la.. humans wanna faint liao la.. XD..

But.. Juz 1 moreee thg..
4 da 8 days.. include before goin 2 Bali n after cuming back..
Im having a FEVER la, COUGH la, FLU la, SORE THROAT la.. n those crap la..
tat cause me when im enjoying my meal.. i felt nthg.. = =.. unless is very very salty or sweet.. = =.. *sob sob* cant taste da food properly aso.. T.T..

OK la.. finish da crapping la.. Enjoy da Photos.. I captured from Bali.. Dun BLINK ur EYES.. XD..

Lovely Uncle n Aunty Irene.. ^^

ME..! at Da Beach.!! woo hoo..!

Hand hand is dirty.. XD.. sands...

Wow.. Human surfing.. Lolx..

Da endless.. damn beautifull.. Beach.. ahh..

we r not Allowed to swim.. T.T..

our hotel swimming pool.. the place we met
uncle n aunty.. ^^..

mum playing wit sand.. so cute.. XD..

oh ya.. we went 2 spa too.. XD..
4 FREE.. XD..

Lol.. who..? da leng lui lo.. XD..

learning craft.. XD.. ask me.. ill tell u in details.. wat da hell am i doin.. XD..

In da Balinese old hse..
knocking the 'alarm'.. lolz..

tats watashi.. XD..

Noe wats da black thg..?
is a dried vanilla.. it smells LIKE vanilla.. XD..

hey.. Tats Uncle Pari n my mum..! XD..

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me.. 'cameraholicing' infront da mirror.. XD..

Is still me.. so pretty.. XD..

Actually visited the mini orchard of.. eh.. 'limaus'..? lol..

though we missed da volcano.. but.. we still get 2 grab sum of da volcano sand..
i brought it back..! buy from me..! XD..

n da volcano rocks too.. =p..

gosh.. who is tis 'fat' lady arr..?? siapa lu..??

our last Dinner in Bali.. Hard Rock Cafe..! 4 Free..!!

they hav a Large Guitar inside.. Wahhh..

n own shop too.. wow.. sell clothes la.. teddy bear la.. a lot.. = =..

a last memoir.. before leaving the cafe.. *sobs sobs*

watashi n haha.. ^^..

oh ya.. hav a look.. wats wrong wit it huh..? XD..

A pic of watashi n ms Su Bin.. She's pretty..
n me..? like old lady liddat.. =.='..

WOW..! IM DONE.. WIT MY CRAPPING.. NICE..? lolz.. can barely stand it.. haha.. XD..
N ya.. who said Bali was HOT..? IS COLD over THERE.. im Wearing jacket where ever i go..
DUN.. ever say.. Bali is HOT.. NOOO.. is not.. XD.. i MIss BALI.. ^^..

My Gosh..!! Is Done..!!

My Blog..!
Alas..!! Is Done..!! Im so Damn Happy..!! wat can i say..??! all hail Esther..!! i luv ya..!! if not.. i dont know how long muz i wait.. omg.. est.. you are my life.. XD.. too over huh..? XD.. anyway.. thanks..!! n.. sry huixin.. din mean it.. hope u hav a sweet dream now.. coz waiting for us to finish my blog.. im so sorry, my child.. hope u wont mind.. XD.. N.. Everyone.. Nitezz..!! Hav a Sweet Dream..!!

welcome =)