Now I Know.

What took me so long.

Now I know. I really know.

It's meaningless to defend this relationship.

It's meaningless.

Thats it.

Thats it. Fuck you.

You're angry then everything you do to me is right?
well then fuck you.

Because you cant get to finish your stupid assignment and you cant get me out of my damn house to fetch you and you got angry. then fuck you again.

Because I went to sleep and didnt reply you in msn you got angry again well then fuck you.

It is very NORMAL for sick people go to sleep. and you said you care but when I told you in the phone Im sleeping What the hell do you get angry for??
For not replying in msn?? And you can just off the phone like it was the right thing to do??

And when I reply you in msn. I wondered how long again should I wait for you to reply.
Hey. You are even worst than me. When ever I find you 1st you never even reply and even you reply it's like Im always the last you replied.

And you call me fetch you then fetch you?? Im your driver or somewhat??
You said you're angry cause I cant go out but more angry coz sick.
You know Im sick and it is not normal for me to sleep?? Is not like I know you're finding for me in msn. Coz you barely did. Even when you online you dont even bother to find me or tell me you're there. Then why I fucking bother to reply you when I was trying to get some rest because I am fucking SICK and restless.

You're angry because you cant finish your assignment.
You're angry because I cant BE YOUR DRIVER.
You're angry because I cant go out with you.
You're angry because I didnt reply you in msn.
You're angry and you blamed me and put everything on ME as if is really MY WRONG.
Tell me. How wrong am I now?

You can just call and says " YOU NO NEED TO FIND ME AGAIN " and just off the damn phone just like that.

Fine. YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT.
AND I AM ALWAYS FUCKING WRONG.
STOP COMMUNICATING?? FINE. THEN STOP.

FUCK YOU.

..................................................................................................................

IM FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU.

You said you care when I am sick.
Then if I go get some rest is it really my wrong?

When I said I couldn't fetch you to somewhere to finish YOUR ASSIGNMENT
Is it my wrong again?

When I didn't reply you in msn
Is it my wrong again?

I dont know Im that wrong then.

The TRUTH is
YOU NEVER CARE.

WHAT YOU CARE IS
YOUR FUCKING ASSIGNMENT.
NOT ME.

You.

You are everything.
I Love You.
=].

You,

You.
Change everything in a flash.
Feelings mixed around being with you.
Do you share the same too?

Everything Just. Is.
You.

......

There's never a smooth road to true love.

How much would you sacrifice for me?
How much would I sacrifice for you?

How many difficulties we will go through?

Are you always there for me?
Am I always here for you?

Thousand of question can't be answer.
If you can answer. Tell me then.

How true is your love to me?
How long is your love to me?

Impossible.
Love are unspeakable.
The feeling of Love can't be hide.
If you really Love that person.
He/She can feel it.

Speak to me now.
With your heart. Your love.

And. I don't know the answers for those questions.
But what I knew is that.
I Love You.

Unavoidable. Unspeakable. Really Lost Without You.

Can You Love Me Please?

Wee~~

Wee~~

My P license is here. Look.

Lol. I looked like auntie in tat. What to do?
It's my last year passport photo.
It not only looked like auntie. but it looks like a fat missy, retarded human,
round face like the moon in the sky, retarded smile.
Ueekkkweeekk...! Humans can actually spill out the food they've digested. XD.

Hahahahahahaah. What to do? I'm excited for my P license now! hehe.
BUT. Mc................... TOLONG! I cant drive auto car. I'm not use to it. T.T.
If I cant drive a car then what's the usage of the stupid P license? Mccc ar~~~~~~~~~~

Hahahahahah. over.
Diagnostic are around the corner. OMG. DIE.
HOW COULD I EVER SURVIVED WITHOUT MY COMP?

My chemistry teacher said: You must put everything away. So that you can concentrate in your SPM. Put everything away into your cupboard. And you can also help your siblings in the future. XD.


NO COMICS, NO MSN, NO ONLINE GAME, NO YOUTUBE, NO FACEBOOK, NO FRIENDSTER, NO ANIME, NO TOUCHING THE COMP.

Conclusion : NO ENTERTAINMENT. BUT TO STUDY FOR SPM. T.T.
LIFE IS NOT AS WHAT YOU WANTED. T.T. XD.

Haha. But life is about Jun Ki. XD.
He's getting handsome and cuter day by day.
His new album is out! He is way damn cool for his album cover.
He's coated in white. Album named 'J-Style'.
woohooo..! J, I support you forever! XD.

I've bought some books from popular. It's not really fiction. But more likely. Human's nature.
I'll post the pic of the books if can. hehe. It's most likely in quotations form.

This, I get from Love Letter.

The sun cannot shine
without you,
the birds can
make no melody.
The flowers have
no other beauty
or perfume -
all is a
meaningless waste.
I love you darling....
You are in
every thought,
dream, hope, desire.

AUSTIN DICKINSON
(1829-1995)
TO MABEL TODD


*Hey. You, I'll never forget. You're the one who made my life complete.
You're just like the letter above. I can never afford to lose you.*

Haha. Lame post again. Bye Darls. Nite. Sweet dreamz. Hehehehe.

Leave.

Leave.

Dont leave me. Again.
I cant bear to lose you again.
I cant bear to be distant away from you.
I cant live without you.
Dont Leave.

*I know Im the one who's always causing trouble.
*I know Im always making you feel uneasy.
*But deep down. I Love You.

Know.

Know.
I know how it feels.
When we are distant apart.

hate you

i juz hate you..
but u noe wat does it really mean rite..?

u muz realize tat thgs cant continue be like tis..
if u wanted to be like tis..
then i rather i nvr hav u...

u juz can continue having her ur mind..
n dump me aside..
coz im not worth it rite..?
i nvr do..

u told before..
tat u r not worth it..
but still..? i believe u..

but.. i hear a lot.. n thought a lot..
i think i shud do the right thg rather then let u be more rotten and even rotten..

tis i wat i hav done.. choose..
i is painful..
but u muz noe..

the painful one is only you..
me and her share the same feel..
but u nvr realize it..

let go is hard thg to do..
but it doesnt mean u cant..
unless u urself who dont want to do it..

stop giving excuses n reason that you've tried.. but u cant..
wat is this..?? is tis wat u can tell me if u are the one who doesnt wan to do it..??
stop.. enough..
if u are really committed n really want to do it..
u would have success it earlier..
not until it coz wat had happen today..

dont blame others..
i noe we are wrong..
but do think u r not guilty..? not the wrong one..?

u make ur choice now..
we hac clearly voice out what we wanted to say..
is tat u the one we're waiting for ur answer..
ur mind.. ur decision..

we both really care bout u..
tats why we dare to say tis hurtful thg..
but dont forget..
wat u suffered.. we are suffering it now too.. even long before this..

i rather u change.. then having u by my side..
i rather u hav her in ur mind but not be together with me..
i rather im da one who suffer all this..
but thgs are not easy as u thought..

im always here..
but thgs will not remain the same now..
good luck.. good bye..

あいしてる。。さよなら。。