Again.

Again.

DEAD TIRED.


And.....

Jenilee! HAPPY BURFDAY!!!~~~

XD.


Nitezz Babies~ XD.

Hey!

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Check this out!

Is Siew Leng's and friends handmade craft.

They are selling it as pressie!

Go check on it if you're free k. XD.

http://diy-lavie.blogspot.com/

I link it too. XD.

Nitezz baby~ XD.

Wondering.

I wonder will I have another accident again.

I wonder what is my coming to my life.

I wonder how far we'll go.

I wonder can my license go through 2 year safely.

I wonder what will become of me in future.

I wonder. I just wonder. I just couldn't stop wondering.

But one thing for sure.

Ill never wonder bad things that happened or bound to happen to us.

No one. Nothing. Forever. Can stop it. Stop us.

Wonder. Wonder for SPM result.

Never stop wondering. I wonder.

X_______x

Dead Tired.



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You let me Down.

Decide.

Decide.

Me. Or their words.

And you know Im with you.

Am I not worth it?

Tell me.

Give Up.

I dont know.
That Us only worth this much.
With only a few words.
You give up.
Then how am I supposed to continue?

If that's what you want.
Then you have it.
Wish you happy ever after.

Us.

Do you still stand by me now?
For I will always stand by you.

Ill wait.
Until I reached You.

Really.
I Love You.

Arrhhhh!!!!

Oh God.

I HATE Accident.

Why must it happen to me.

Arhhhhhh!!!!!!! Stupid Unser! Damn you.!

Arrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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No.
I dont want to be separated from you.
Please.
=[.

=].

Me. You. = Us.

=].



More than words.

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know.


Love You So.

Missing.

Missing.

Miss.

Miss.

Miss.

Everything.

You're not Sorry.

No. You're not sorry.
That's what you meant and how you feel towards me.
Dont know is an answer that shouldnt be said to someone special.
You said it. And somehow it shows the answer Yes.
I never say that I must be the most important one.
But it make me feels I am always the last who came to your mind.
Watashi is speechless. Emotionless. Numb now. Everything seems like a Total Mess. To her.

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All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no oh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, oh

You're not sorry no no oh

You had me crawling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no oh

You're not sorry, no no oh

Now I Know.

What took me so long.

Now I know. I really know.

It's meaningless to defend this relationship.

It's meaningless.

Damn it.

Damn it.

Fuck what happened today.

And those bitches too.

Fuck. Stupid and extreme unfairness judging.

" Based on the criteria and guidelines..... " What now?

We have all the criteria you asked for and we have the best climax and voice projection. What else?

You want a humor stupid sketch?? Hey. This is a drama competition lady.
Not a short or stupid or make you laugh sketch to win.

And what's wrong with the best actress??
With two lines spoke and running around the hall with a stupid lolipop. Is that the best??
A lot can do that. All of our drama girls can to do. Our acting was way more better than them??
Do we deserve all this?? NO. We gave our best and commitment to this comp. And what the heck did we get in the end??

Based on the criteria and guidelines, you need to be humour enough to win .
Based on the criteria and guidelines, you need to show your boob to win the best actress.
Based on the criteria and guidelines, you to throw an animal on the stage to win.

What the helll ladies???? You aren't blind. How good they did to show you the climax?
By buying a husband from a stupid fortune teller?? or slap the daughter while she didnt even cry after she get the slap. How good was that?? I see NOTHING.

You know what. You judges just dont know what it takes to be a judge. You dont even know the criteria of being a FAIR & QUALIFIED JUDGE. You ladies just some dumbo acting to be a " GOOD JUDGE ".

I Dont Accept this shit man. We'll make sure we get our rights back. And you know what.

Based on the criteria and guidelines, You are most idiotic and blind and deaf judges I've ever met. Get some treatment ladies. We dont want you go around and spoiling someone's life.

F U C K ! ! !
D A M N I T ! !

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Oh ya. Meet back a very good friend today also.

Gui Gui.

Nice seeing you back.

I guess we only get to see each other once a year. XD.



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Prove to me.

How much you care.

How much you want me.

How much do you love me.

Arrhhh!! Argghhh!!

This is going to be a long post. Bear with it. XD.

10-11 July 09.

Went for a camp held in our school organized by WIRAJAYA.

Let me tell you something...... The camp was FREAKING FUN!

For humans who missed it. You did miss something really fun that you cant find it anywhere.

" THE CAMP WAS POWER GILA MAN " XD.

Too bad. No pics for the camp. Because if we took our phone out and the next second you'll realized is GONE. XD. But I'll try to get the pics from teachers. Haha.

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Then, on same day of last day of the camp.
Me went to KLCC.
Guess for what, genius.
For some "crazy" make-up artist who trimmed my eyebrow! T-T.
My eye brow now is so ugly and disgusting. T-T.
Nahahahaha. Actually I went for the Estee Lauder Model Search '09 -lah. XD.
Is a full make over but I never there to be a trimming section -lah. Really. T-T.

Watashi and my cousin sister took part in it.
The results are yet to know. Haha.
Jom tengok gambar~ XD.

That's watashi over there. With the handsome make-up artist.
Though he trimmed my eyebrow. ..........

Nearer view. hehe.

Photo shoot section. My hand like "kembang edi" somehow. XD.

Me me me and my mum. XD.

Me, cousin and aunt aunt=mum's sis. XD.

We are family~

Me and my oldest aunt. =].

Me and me youngest aunt. =p.

Me and haha again. =D.

Me cousin and mummy. =].

Me and my oldest cousin. XD.

Me and my youngest cousin sis. hehe.

Me and me youngest cousin bro. Extremely naughty and uncontrollable little cousin. = =. XD.

~ Tang tang tang ~ Me and my cousin sis~ same age. XD.

Ngek ngek ngek. Here it is. My SS pics. XD.

All me. watashi. ME. WATASHI. XD.

Later after that. Went to oldtown with my old best retarded brainless buddy. Huixinxin. XD.
She took a pic with me too. XD.

Look at her retarded face. XD.

My make up was GONE. YEAH~~~

Our face was all out of shape. Hahahah. Especially mine. XDDD.

Nicer one. =].

Oh ya. My bro and Kin Zai was there. And my bro started something we laughed till tears bursting out from our eyes. XD.

Ahhaha. Three retard person with different body shape and face. XD. >.<~

The editted one by Kin Zai. XD.


Weeee~~~~ Yeah~~ It has come to an end. XD.
Big Thing.
Tomorrow is DRAMA COMPETITION! Arghhhh~~~

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Class. Class. Class.
To be as ONE is not easy,
To maintain as ONE is even harder than you can ever imagined.


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One last random shot. XD.

GUuuuuu~~~ XD.

* Life isn't life without you *

Oyasumi nasai.

Thats it.

Thats it. Fuck you.

You're angry then everything you do to me is right?
well then fuck you.

Because you cant get to finish your stupid assignment and you cant get me out of my damn house to fetch you and you got angry. then fuck you again.

Because I went to sleep and didnt reply you in msn you got angry again well then fuck you.

It is very NORMAL for sick people go to sleep. and you said you care but when I told you in the phone Im sleeping What the hell do you get angry for??
For not replying in msn?? And you can just off the phone like it was the right thing to do??

And when I reply you in msn. I wondered how long again should I wait for you to reply.
Hey. You are even worst than me. When ever I find you 1st you never even reply and even you reply it's like Im always the last you replied.

And you call me fetch you then fetch you?? Im your driver or somewhat??
You said you're angry cause I cant go out but more angry coz sick.
You know Im sick and it is not normal for me to sleep?? Is not like I know you're finding for me in msn. Coz you barely did. Even when you online you dont even bother to find me or tell me you're there. Then why I fucking bother to reply you when I was trying to get some rest because I am fucking SICK and restless.

You're angry because you cant finish your assignment.
You're angry because I cant BE YOUR DRIVER.
You're angry because I cant go out with you.
You're angry because I didnt reply you in msn.
You're angry and you blamed me and put everything on ME as if is really MY WRONG.
Tell me. How wrong am I now?

You can just call and says " YOU NO NEED TO FIND ME AGAIN " and just off the damn phone just like that.

Fine. YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT.
AND I AM ALWAYS FUCKING WRONG.
STOP COMMUNICATING?? FINE. THEN STOP.

FUCK YOU.

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IM FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU.

You said you care when I am sick.
Then if I go get some rest is it really my wrong?

When I said I couldn't fetch you to somewhere to finish YOUR ASSIGNMENT
Is it my wrong again?

When I didn't reply you in msn
Is it my wrong again?

I dont know Im that wrong then.

The TRUTH is
YOU NEVER CARE.

WHAT YOU CARE IS
YOUR FUCKING ASSIGNMENT.
NOT ME.

I'm Sorry.

Im Sorry.

Im always not there when you need me.

Im Sorry.

Off.

Off to camp today. At our very ""Dearest"" School.

Blog will be updated ASAP. About "us. ours."

Bye.




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Conflicts. Emotions. Self-thought.

Never grow up. Immature. Helpless. Selfish.

All the F**************************************************.

Take it. Accept it.

That's life.